My Life, My Rules, My Choices, My Mind, My Heart!

As I sit in a dark corner I look around into the darkness of the night With just one light that is on me My eyes start to glow red Red with anger Red with betrayal The thought of those Who said they would be there For my family And never once showed up Not even for the Holidays Do you think I am fuckin stupid Do you think I give a shit about my SO CALLED FAMILY They can basically go fuck themselves They only show up when they want money Because my grandmother is a sweetlady She gives in And it pisses me the fuck off that So called family would treat her like that As I continue to sit in the corner of this dark alley Lights flash all around me Red and white Blue and white As I stand up and walk towards the street light at the end of the alley The lights hit my hand and I look down As the rain slowly pours down on to my empty soul I look down with rain dripping down my hair I see my hands covered in a dark crimson red Could it be??

Pullin things like a hat trick in hockey Mysteriously one thing sets me off My eyes burn red Anger burns deep inside Suppressed anger Fear itself can even hide Pull my fist out and I start swinging Try to talk shit little fucker I'll knock your teeth out Don't try to act like your the shit I'll pull your intestines out your ass That way the shit stops spewing All you'll see is blood dripping My anger rages on You'll see the pain I'll inflict on you when I start firing my fist You said you used to go to peoples houses And beat people up with a bat I'll tell you this much You dumb son of a bitch Come to my house And I'll show you what pain and suffering is all about I don't need no fuckin baseball bat All I need is my anger And I'll break your god damn legs off You don't deserve to work Where we work Your pretty damn stupid Fuck you asshole That girl that you called is a chick At the time was a eighth grader I should fuckin kick your retarded a...

When the thought of pain Is inflicted on someone We tend to cry and wonder For someone its because of the physical damage And we cry in pain and ask god When will it be over Another reason to cry Is when we are mentally abused The thought of someone physically hurting us Makes our body automatically cringe Some people don't realize what they are doing To someone that loves them the most With empty promises and no end in sight Would you let the rain continue to fall Or will you take a stand And say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH?

For all the things That might go wrong In your life There will always Be a light at the end Of that tunnel As the hand of God Reaches out for you To carry you In the most Trying times There are people that Appreciate a wonderful Person like yourself People like me Your boyfriend Who enjoys what you have to offer You shouldn't be crying You should be smiling every Chance you get Life is too short To live I know that This is just words But these are Words that come From someone Who cares about you More than you can Ever imagine I really want to be The man that lifts your spirits When you are down When you cry I will be there To wipe the tears away With a single kiss To your lips Will my arms be comforting enough To shield you from the past? Will my love be enough To look into the future I believe the future burns bright For the both of us I know that this might sound corny But I want you enough that even if it takes Five years like you said I might wait that long For you Time will fi...

On the eve of destruction I let me fears take over There is no control My emotion is in pain Fuck the people That want to cause the rain Sitting in the dark Listening to everything Around me Fear decides my fate Anger drives me To the brink of destruction I will not let my Anger take over I will not let What I had fade away If leave you Make sure That my heart fades Away with all those happy memories Make it Fade Like all those promises I will be just A shadow in the back of your mind I will be non existent

I would make you my queen Although I do not have All the riches In the world I only have one thing to offer you That is my heart For my Queen She deserves the best A hug For when you are down A kiss For when you are lonely A Hug and a Kiss For when you feel like your alone in this world I would hold your hand Through the darkness I would take my shirt off So you can walk over a puddle You are my Mexican Queen I would bring you breakfast in bed When you are sick I would make you lunch in bed Just so you can relax And enjoy the day I would make you dinner So in the end You can show me Your beautiful smile And I will ask you Do you want me As your dessert Again All this Because you are my Mexican Queen Diana I you are the most beautiful rose In the bed of roses I can tell that after Tuesday You are the brightest star In my life That when the nights get dark and cold Your the star that lights the night skies We only have a short time here I know that When you leave I will miss a friend lik...

For those that say I have found you I can say For the first time I can hold you Not sure if you noticed But when I held you I didn't want to let you go In my mind I feel that I am physically Attracted to you In my heart It says our hearts For once beated in harmony I could just sit And stare into your Wonderful eyes I what ever you say Will always Take my breathe away No matter how far Or how close We are I want to get to know you I want to go deeper In thought about you What your interests are What emotions you are feeling Is your heart beating a little fast? I will be honest Mines is beating pretty quick While I write this As I am letting my hands Type away My mind is drifting To our little kiss That made my day It was perfect I would have given you a rose But the kiss was worth a thousand words I would rather write A poem Then send you a card I would rather hold your hand Than leave you alone I would love to lay next to you And whisper sweet nothing In your ears Just to see you ...